The motion of moving forward instead of backwards.

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I was thinking about progress. The motion of moving forward instead of backwards. You know, that moment in time, when you are standing at the edge of a cliff with no path in sight. Sure you could turn around and go back the way you came… but why? Why move forward to only go back?

It is easy to talk about how one should trust, have faith, and courage… but when it’s your turn…and your standing there… with your feet on the edge, well… it can feel next to impossible.

What I am realizing though is that moments like this are beautiful. They are rare and to be treasured…savored and embraced. Stand there…appreciate and process where you have arrived. Acknowledge what you have gone through to get there. Celebrate your journey. When we take the time and appreciate all that we have been through to get to this particular place we begin to feel the excitement of what is next to come. This reflection allows us to value and validate the pain we encountered along the way…it lets us know it had a purpose.

No one ever said you couldn’t just stand there and ponder a while. Processing the journey gives us added courage and faith to take that next unchartered step. That “leap of faith” that so many speak of so flippantly.

I am finding (as I stand here…at the edge of my path) that the current cycle of time we are in is all about momentum… thrusting us forward with the slightest bit of motion. I would like to think that come the month of May things will slow down a bit…but I am convinced that we are in some kind of time warp. 2013 is proving to be about motion…movement. It is as though as soon as you think you have a plan and something figured out…some one picks up the snow globe and shake the hell out of it!

We are being tested and taught to actually go with the flow. To set a plan, set into motion and then be willing or able to see the change needed, and react. We are being challenged to think on our feet and trust our gut. Our intuition has been speaking to us for years… and for the most part we have been listening. We have taken a very slow and methodical approach to our intuition. Now it feels as though my reflexes are being tested. Like the giant game of whack a mole. I need to be alert and able to listen to my intuition and react.

The thing is with all this movement doesn’t mean we are not completing anything and just changing directions or our minds, mind you. What is happening is with the momentum that is behind our intentions right now we are creating nearly as fast as we are intending. So it is more of a process of Think – Act – Complete, 1-2-3 Done.

Keeping in the forefront of our minds that what we are thinking we are starting to create even before we start the physical process of creating or acting it out. Many times by the time we think we are starting something we thought about, it is really already nearing completion and we are not necessary ready or prepared for it.

basically this blog post is about remembering to be in the moment. Fear not the direction you are going. Trust your intuition, and yourself. Take those leaps of faith…for this year there will be many of them along our paths.

As I am writing this blog, I keep hearing the song that Kris Kringle sang to Winter in the 1970’s Holiday special “When Santa Clause Comes To Town” In the song even though they are talking about changing from “good to bad” I think it really fits, for it is about believing in ones self. Taking that leap of faith that anything is possible, with the right mindset.

[Speech from the special]
Winter: I really am a mean, and despicable creature at heart you know. It’s difficult to [sniff] really change.
Kris: Difficult? [chuckles] Why, why look here, changing from bad to good is as easy as taking your first step.

[Chorus]
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.

You never will get where you’re going
If ya never get up on your feet.
Come on, there’s a good tail wind blowin’
A fast walking man is hard to beat.

[Chorus]

If you want to change your direction,
If your time of life is at hand,
Well, don’t be the rule, be the exception
A good way to start is to stand.

[Chorus]

Winter: If I want to change the reflection
I see in the mirror each morn…
Kris: Oh, you do.
Winter: You mean that it’s just my election?
Kris: Just that.
Winter: To vote for a chance to be reformed? Woo-hoo!

[Chorus 2x]

Namaste!

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Are you in control of your emotions… or are your emotions in control of you?

Image from Visual Paradox

Image from Visual Paradox

Thump…thump…thump…thump…

I hear it…do you?
The pumping…thumping…pounding
beating rhythm of a heart…my heart.

Edgar Allen Poe is running through my thoughts right now…
He was always a favorite poet and story-teller of mine, when I was younger.  He seemed to be able to describe in such great detail the depth of pain a heart could cause or hold. 

Think about it…an organ, a magnificent body organ that works in harmony with our brain to keep us alive.
That is all it is right…an organ.
But is it? I am afraid not. Even though it is an organ, this beautiful construction has the capacity to make us feel,and hold emotions.  Some that are in the moment and many that no longer serve us.

Even a simple rhythm in a song can trigger and  recreates an emotional reaction…
a longing in the heart.  Just as the tempo shifts our thoughts and feelings begin to change as well.  We react  like the strings attached to a marionette. 

Are you in control of your emotions…or are your emotions in control of you?

What emotion do you lead with? In your daily life…your exchanges, are you leading with your heart?  What does this mean to you? Are you able to tell the difference between the two? Can you tell if you are leading or being lead? Do you see the potential difference?

I have fond myself at times in a an emotional circle… Where I have experienced something that left a very strong emotional reaction/impact on my heart… Instead of working through it and looking for the lesson…breaking down the experience, and removing judgment of self and others…I wallow. 

Let me say for a minute here that there is a great difference between , feeling an emotion, letting it run its course and wallowing. It is really important to feel the emotion and move through it. Coming out on the other side is important. If you don’t process it…it can become you. 

Leading with emotion is not always bad…as with pretty much anything I write about it is about balance.  I find it hard to fixate on a black and white type of answer or society.  everything happens for a reason and everything that needs to happen will.  It is how we come at things… what emotion or stance we hold going into a situation can give it a completely different outcome.  It all goes back to the fact that we have choices and lessons in this life time… how we get to our destination is determined by us.  Some choices and lessons will take faster than others and some will move slower.  How you get there is up to you.  We need to learn to look within ourselves and see what our motivation or agenda is at any given time. 

Some will say that they do not live from agenda and that they have reached the highest of vibrations… Great… I don’t necessarily believe that this happens very often.  This physical life of ours is full of twists and turns.  We live equally in ego and spirit… to do this we encounter the effects of both.  All I want for all of us is to open our minds and our hearts to our intentions.  Understand ourselves and why we chose left and not right.  Learn from our choices and our reactions.  Don’t just be a game piece in your life, live it, be an active participant of the internal life as well as your external. 

It is possible to coast through and let ourselves be led through the experiences in our current life time…but why?  Why wouldn’t we want to be an active participant in our choices?  Relish in the beauty of it, the joy…sure there is pain as well…but through the pain we always have the potential for growth.  Expansion…in awareness of who we are and who we were meant to be. 

So as we embark on this confusing spring season (yes confusing)  engage your heart and chose neutrality in most all your outward interactions.   Why do I say confusing?  I seem to be getting the message that each season this year holds a year of seasons within it.  Each primary season magnified by its matching season within it, but also having traits and mirroring all the other seasons as well.    2013 is proving to be very unique, fast and exciting all at the same time.  Again I compare it to a time warp… a worm hole in the universe, providing an express lane to the next lesson. 

The biggest reminder is to live from your heart, that incrediable organ holds the key to your continued growth.  This chakra has been preparing for a very long time to help take on the power needed to infuse the rest of your energy centers.  All you need to do is open it up, air it out, let the blood pump through and trust that this is the new direction for all. 

Hold on and enjoy the ride.  Happy spring.

Namaste~

When you ask a question do you listen for the answer?

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Earless Potato head
He doesn’t hear you…

 

Do you say what you mean or mean what you say? Do you communicate with agenda or authenticity? What are your intentions? Do you start a dialogue with someone with an intention or agenda? When you ask a question do you listen for the answer? If you are not listening for the answer are you even hearing the question? Do most of your communications with people happen out of habit? Do you think before you speak?

These are all things I really started contemplating last week. Our communication…my communication where are we effective and ineffective.

I don’t believe it is possible to be the perfect communicator at all times…would it be great, yes.  Realistic, I don’t believe it is possible.  One of the things I really try to maintain in my blog  is being honest.  Even when being honest is not easy.  Just as I am human, we are all human.  I am reminded everyday that I am living a clairvoyant life, not a spirit life.  I am in all my glory, human and to error is to be human.

Maybe it was Mercury’s recent retrograde that got me thinking about communication, how we do it, and our thoughts behind it.  I remember this teacher I had in 7th grade…she asked a few of us in class one day how we were.  A lot of people responded with the normal, fine thanks how are you.  Not a big deal or story right??? Well, actually it is a really good story.  Stop and think for a minute…if someones in passing says to you “Hi, How are you doing?   What do you do?

Do you stop and look at them and say “Hi (so and so) I am doing really good, How are you doing?” or do you say, “Fine thanks, how are you?” Either response is really nice and politely sufficient, wouldn’t you say so?  What is the difference?  Well the only difference is in your awareness of the question and intent in answering.  Meaning, are you responding out of pure habit, or are you slowing down and processing the question and answering honestly?

The majority in the class responded out of habit.  the standard, fine thanks how are you.  Where as soon as we have finished uttering the word “you”… we have moved on and past the encounter, not pausing for even an answer.  She asked us all to test it.  Go out and ask the question to others, and see how they respond.  She also took it a step farther and asked us to respond non traditionally when we were asked how we were…either pause and really think before saying “fine” or say something different all together.  See how many people even notice what you say in your response.  The results were actually quite sad.  I blame, and thank  that teacher on the beginnings of my so-called awareness.

Now this test was in the late 70’s for me…but I think you could do it now with unfortunately similar findings.

About five years ago I used to work with someone who would get so annoyed with me for not asking them back how they were in this salutation.  They would see me…and say “Hi Jackie, How are you today”.  I would say “Hi Scott, I am fabulous (or sometimes Great, I would pick a letter and go with it that day) thanks” and I would continue on.  He would always respond with “I am fine too, thanks for asking”.  the thing was… I would never say I am fine, or ask him how he was.   That is what he would hear because he was never listening.  I would chuckle and be on my way. Granted I should have left it alone…but it was so obvious he was not paying attention and not being authentic.  Eventually he noticed and it really bothered him and I should have played the game and said what your supposed to say, but I didn’t.  The thing about this exchange with my coworker was it was all about ego to him.  He would make this grand statement and hello in earshot of others.  He had something to prove and I was just not the one to play along.    I learned that one afternoon in 7th grade that we can and should be polite but we should also not say things just to say them.  If I am truly wanting to know how you are I will ask you and I will listen.  I forget that I am expected to ask, out of simple courtesy .. but I believe that in the end it isn’t courteous it is rude (especially if I am not going to really listen to your answer).

In the situation above between my coworker and I, finally one day when we went through our daily routine, I responded with “that’s great Scott, but I learned a long time ago that when someone really wants to know they will not only ask, but listen”.  He got the message and we no longer had to play the game.

This example is specific, but really it affects all of our communications.  When we say I am sorry… are we saying it to just say it? Have you ever listened or counted how many times you say it, in a day?  Do you over say it?  Are you sorry when, in all reality whatever you are sorry about has nothing to even do with you?  In one day how many times do you say you are sorry?  For some of us we may be amazed at how often we are sorry.  Does the universe hear this as a mantra?  I am not saying stop apologizing… I am saying bring your awareness back into your apology, your sympathy.  Mean it.  And really if you are apologizing that much in a single day…maybe there are other things you should be looking at within yourself.

Now that Mercury is out of retrograde, I thought a good blog on communication was in order.  Something to talk about how we seem to lose sight in our authenticity in social settings.  We fall into programmed behavior that started with good intent and purpose, but has lost it intentions.  We need to honor our communication.  Be true to what you say and speak from your heart. Time moves much to quickly to not take the time to slow down and engage with people. Especially in the age of such technology.   Being honest about your intentions, and keeping your communications powered through our heart center (Chakra) will keep us from manipulating others or situations.  

This week focus on being aware of your communications, check yourself and check how others communicate with you (are they listening…really listening or thinking about what they are going to say next?).  What I once thought was a simple class project became so much more.  It taught me to be aware of what I am saying and how I am responding.  I may not always remember it, but…hey I am human remember.  This really was a great experience in awareness.

I cannot remember this teachers name…really wish I did.  She taught my 7th grade creative writing class…she encouraged writing and spoke candidly of her faults.  She is also the same teacher that gave the class a lesson on personal boundaries (which I have written about previously) she left a wonderful impression on me.  This is something we all need to remember and be aware of…we leave impressions on people…we never know really what we do that will leave the impression, or when it will happen.  Just know that it does, and we do.  When you live from your heart you know the impression you leave will be a good one.  Have a beautiful week!

Namaste~

Time to learn to swim with the current, not against it…

Pisces Spiral GalaxyI think what I am learning that right now…is we need to really dig into the old wounds. Peel back the scab that avoidance has formed and really dig at the root of the issue.

Just the thought of it is painful, uncomfortable and downright unpleasant.  Yes…I know it’s a disgusting image.  This imagery is in place to keep us away.  We want to avoid and that avoidance lets the scab form. Contrary to what we have been told about picking scabs…in this instance picking at the scab will not leave a scare.  Quite the opposite. Finding the cause will remove the cover up as well as the potential scare tissue and help us move forward.

I feel pretty confident that now is the time to move forward. Unearthing the issue we have avoided or let “scab” over will help us to see clearer the direction we are meant to go….the direction however that we go in will not be as easy as it could be when we carry our untreated wounds.  Doing this will feel like you are going up hill instead of traveling forward on a level plain. Why is it important? Just think of all the energy we will or would have if we didn’t need to carry all the scars with us. We would be able to focus and manifest that much the clearer and faster.

In the spirit of the Pisces new moon,  lets swim with the current not against it right now. If you feel like it is nothing but currents and you’re not getting where you are want to be…maybe you are dragging too much with you.  Are you even aware of what you are holding on to?  Are you holding on out of habit? Does it serve you or even matter anymore?

Much of the internal resistance we are feeling right now is in conjunction with mercury being in retrograde…it seems to be having more of an internal effect on us this time, instead as much externally.   As we near the 17th of March,  the fog will start to clear…things will begin to make more sense again.  Now is the perfect time to just sit with your thoughts.

Take time in the next few days to show appreciation for your perseverance. Applaud yourself for what you have accomplished…how far you have come. This has been a new time…a fast time. Energetically things are shifting quicker than ever before. In all the haste of change we need to be reminded to stop and show ourselves appreciation (no matter how small) it is VERY important. I am reminded of a song from The Rocky Horror Picture Show…Time warp…the thing is…we are all doing the time warp right now.  Everything is moving, quickly.  The saying “Thoughts become things”…takes on a new importance…as it becomes a more urgent reminder to focus on the positive.

So how are we to pick off the scabs and remain positive you ask? Remain NEUTRAL, this is the key.  Some of those old wounds have been festering for a very long time, so it’s not always easy to do this.  The energetic charge we are all carrying right now tells me that we have the power, right now, to take this stand.  It is what is necessary and all that’s standing in our way is the shadow of fear. Fear from our past attempts…and the events themselves.  Just remember that spirit does not lead us to something that it thinks we are not equip to handle.
The time  right now,  is to center ourselves and run our energy…
Pull in a a beautiful light of spirit…a white iridescent glow that is rich in love, warmth, wisdom and strength.  
Trust this light.  Let it fill you.
Fill you with the strength and courage you need to rip the “bandage” off and air out what we have kept covered. Then Breathe deeply, and with each breath know that you are not alone, you are never alone and
Release..release…and release.

Then fill in with all that you desire…no doubts how it will all be achieved… Just believe.
Trust that the picture is bigger than you could ever imagine.
Know that love is the ultimate goal.
Remove self judgement and allow things to unfold.
Step into your light body, and allow yourself to feel the warmth. Bask in it.
Breathe in the inspiration that surrounds you.

The task at hand is more about exposing the wound… Acknowledging it.  Thanking it in a sense for the lessons you have learned from it, and then letting it know that it is no longer serving you. It’s original purpose is no longer needed…the protection or reminder has been replaced with a new understanding.  An understanding of who you are and why.  Love now fills the space where the scab once was.  Love will replace the void, the regret, the pain.  If this were a card game Love would ultimately heal and trump all.  Play the love card on you self. 

The beauty of love is that once you give it, you release it…you are automatically filled with more. The more you give the more you recieve…it is endless.

Remember Love =more love….

Namaste~

Trust in the direction you are headed and know that soon the path will become clear.

DSCN3695I am not sure about the rest of you…but I thought coming into March would feel a little calmer.  Instead I am feeling focused one minute and completely scattered the next. 

My head is full of thoughts and direction and yet I am overwhelmed and unsure of my next step.  Where am I going?  What was I doing?  Focus and then confusion, this is my current  routine.   

Thoughts and plans spin rapidly in my brain.  Formulas and ideas for my next class or venture spring up.  Plans and possibilities are everywhere.  One minute I am excited and the very next I am unsure.  I can feel my confidence slide and slowly slip between my fingers.  I find myself sitting…starring blankly at the screen wondering not only where but how do I even begin.  Looking at the clock I find that what felt like moments were really minutes.  Minutes that slipped into hours.  Hours of sitting, with nothing to show.  A blank screen.  A reflection of the direction I feel like I am heading. 

I am torn with do-ing and be-ing.  Knowing full well that I am still in the state of be-ing.  The do-ing is coming…

I realize I cannot start do-ing right now, even though I have this intense need to surge ahead at times.  What I am realizing is… if I started do-ing right now (that is if the universe actually allowed me to, which it is not!) I would end up re-doing everything anyway.  It being stressed to me in so many ways that everything is not in place yet, ideas are still formulating.  The intentions are still fermenting, getting ready to burst through the soil.  The Cycle of time right now is that of a dust storm.  Those things that have not quite been dealt with or taken care of are being re-circulated to the forefront of our attention. 

 The next two weeks are going to be about waiting out the dust storm.  Letting the dust settle before we start sweeping up the debris.  If we start now we will just be moving it from one corner to another.  Give it all time to settle, then asses what is still needing cleaned up.  THEN, finally we can start the steps needed to create the space for all that we have been dreaming of.  This winter has been about seeding our intentions for the coming year.  

Mercury being in retrograde is usually a challenge of its own, but right now it actually feels helpful.  I communication that is struggling for most of us in our internal communication.  The clarity and then the haze that we may feel internally actually forces us to look deeper within.  It is as though the fog we may be experiencing is the universes way of slowing us down from being to reactive.  Basically what I am trying to tell you all is to realize you are not alone… right now, just take some breaths, trust all will make sense soon, and go with the flow.   

Spring will be abundant.  Abundant in so many ways. 

Enjoy your Monday!

Namaste~

Snow Angels

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Earlier today I was really uncertain about what I would blog about. I spent much of the day shoveling snow, then shoveling again. But, all the while I was shoveling I couldn’t help but stare at the beautiful crispness of the day. I was filled with a child like sense of wonderment, of all that was possible. Memories of past forts, snowmen and snow angels came bursting into mind. After all the said work of shoveling and snow blowing were done, I threw myself into the snow…I laid there…took a deep breath and as I exhaled, I made my first snow angel in years. When I was done, I looked up into the snow filled sky and smiled, tomorrow would be a full moon.
So …I must write.

Like I stated above, we received a lot of snow today where I live. Beautiful blanket of a crisp white snow, covering all that was previously exposed. Seems fitting on the eve of a Virgo full moon.

This full moon actually contrasts the signs of Virgo and Pisces.

Why do I say fitting? One of the many things the Virgo full moon magnifies for us is the need to sift through our essence. Look at who we really are. We are asked to look within. Peel back the many layers of conditioning. Release all that does not serve our higher consciousness.

While Pisces teaches and reminds us that we are both a particle and a wavered portal and eternal, a singular and indivisible part of the universe. Pisces asks that we see through the illusion of duality put our trust in our inner knowing and remember how we are all one.

The fresh layer of snow today filled me with a sense of beauty, and peace. It was like I was looking at a blank slate. I could make it anything I wanted. So in an essence, I am being prompted to look within with the same excitement. Release all. Sit with your sovereignty, feel the essence that it you. When you start to fill back, only call back the energy and focus that best serves your highest good, or what rings true to you. Not what you are suppose to feel or believe.

Recently I read some information on the Virgo full moon by a Stephanie Austin. Something she said really imbedded itself into my head. She said (in reference to the alignment of the sun, Chiron, Venus and Neptune) “These alignments show us that acceptance, not time, heals all wounds. Judgement and resentment close our hearts and will literally make us sick.” I have really found this to be true in my life. Big events, painful events do not go away, the imprint or impact that they make on our life are difficult to fade. Acceptance of what was, what happened, allows us the ability to move on. If your are unable to accept, you may need to look within a little more, what are you blocking, why are you holding on.

Letting go doesn’t mean it wasn’t whatever it was, it means that you no longer are going to fuel it. You are no longer going to keep the energy flowing. By continuing to send it energy you create a circle event…it always comes back to you, over and over again.

Look at the blank slate (blanket of snow) start fresh. Don’t know how? Intend it. Intentions are that powerful.

I actually saw a post on Facebook today, someone said that the February full moon is called the snow moon, definitely the case today here in Loveland, Colorado. Check out my FB page!

Enjoy your full moon.

Namaste~

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Patience + Acceptance + Balance = Harmony

A Loveland Colorado sunset.

A Loveland Colorado sunset.

I have been thinking  a lot about patience and acceptance lately.

The practice of patience is truly all about balance and practice, and practice makes perfect…right? Perfection can be quite a tall order.  An aspiration  I actually don’t think I wish to obtain.

The challenge of accepting where we are at currently in the big scope of our lives requires patience. So often we are overly focused on what we believe to be “needs” like; what needs to be done, what we need to complete, what we need to say, where we need to be. We lose focus on the beauty of what is. Some would say that it is best to live life to the fullest each and every day….others would say that a life in that direction is a wasted life, and others yet would say we should never lose sight of what was, and learn from our mistakes. 

Well…Let’s see… A recent conversation in one of my workshops kind of addresses this.  We were talking  about being aware, learning to understand things that come up within our introspection. The conversation shifted on the discussing the importance of balancing our past our present and our future. We talked about how important it is to come to the understanding that the acceptance of all three is critical, for we cannot have one without the other. You also cannot live solely out the perspective of just one of them.

Let me see if some examples will help.
Dwellers of the past
Tend to be regretful, remorseful, and long for what was. Constantly tell stories of how things used to be. Have a really hard time accepting change as well as technology. Their minds tend to be set on predetermined or based off of pre-lived experiences only. Dwellers of the past are not always fun to be around because they tend to be slightly pessimistic and can seem stuck in life (as if they are not moving forward). Living solely from this frame of mind and you will not move forward, life will stay where it is.

Dwellers of the present
Tend to live just in the now. They can sometimes seem the life of the party, always having fun, taking nothing serious. they are fun to be around for periods of time. They can at times lead reckless lives. Never plan for anything. Eventually this focus will either keep them on the proverbial treadmill of life always in motion but really never going anywhere or staying just where they are. Living solely from this frame of mind you will eventually put yourself in the past. To stand steadfast in one place will eventually put you in the past and no longer in the present. Nothing living stands still, stops moving or growing.

Dwellers of the Future
Tend to be living always for tomorrow. Constantly focused on what can be. Focused on what will happen when… They can appear dreamy and unrealistic. They are often caught thinking about the what if’s in life. Coming up with ideas only to come up with a new one or another one. Always wanting to share the latest and greatest plan. Dreamers and visionaries, they are very inspiring people. They believe anything is possible, however they are always planning and never really seem to accomplish what they set out to accomplish (for the plan is always changing, before they even start it). Living with your site always on whats ahead of you, doesn’t allow you to enjoy what you have, or what you learn. To constantly think of a new way or better way forces you to never step forward in the physical form ( and that is what we are a physical of energy).

The goal I am sure you can already see is to find balance. To live with the past and in the present to create a new future. We need to be patient with our growth, our lives, and where we are along our path of life. Within the patience we need acceptance. We need to accept where we are, as well as all that is that makes us different. It is a constant focus this balance of acceptance of our past self, present self as well as the future self. Each essence as important as the other.  Understanding that any one alone in excess would be dangerous.

Ultimately the key is balance, not shutting out or off a facet of ourselves. Everything in our life is about balance. Patience is no different…the key to patience is balance as well. Knowing when too much turns in to apathy and indifference and when not enough invokes arrogance and righteousness.

Eventually, acceptance of what is and patience in what is to be, creates harmony.  Harmony within our spirits and our souls.  We become active participants in our lives, we no longer focus on the past or blame others.  We learn to assume ownership in our growth, our successes, failures and our enrichment. 

What comes to you when you think of patience and acceptance? 
I would love to hear!

Namaste~

Good Morning Moon

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Funny but I knew today was going to be a good day before I even got out of bed.

Granted I could have thought the complete opposite given my sleepless night. From 11:40pm till 4:40am I was up every hour on the hour last night. Awakening with a sense of completion. I would feel refreshed and ready to start my day. Only after looking at the time would become tired once again and gratefully drift back to sleep. I would also go right back to the same dream I was having.

When 4:40 came I was ready for the day, however by this time I was also very tired and confused by my spirits eager anticipation for its arrival.

It wasn’t until I was backing out of my driveway at 6:40 (interesting time patter here) that I noticed the Moon in its full beautiful glory shining ever so brightly to the west just above the mountains.
I actually stopped at the bottom of my driveway. I was so enthralled with its beauty instead of heading east (like I would normally) I used the west exit of our subdivision, just so I could enjoy the moon for a minute or so more.

Today is the full moon. Cancer Full Moon: Fri. Dec. 28, 2012,
Sun 7.06 Capricorn, Moon 7.06 Cancer

This is the 13th moon of 2012, a rare and cool event.  A morning I was definitely not suppose to miss. A day of celebration of all the work that has been accomplished this year.

This is the cold winter moon of December and I will tell you…It was cold this morning!

This moon prompts us to take a look at one what we started with the new moon and make sure we are still on the right path, as well as, realize our highest truth and drop all that is no longer serving us. We may be prompted to re-evaluate our relationships with others as well as our self. Look at where we are spending our time, and find balance. This time of year it can be hard to not lose sight on our goals as it can be chaotic and hectic at the very least. It is important to take some time alone, in your room, to be still and allow the breath to flow through you.

This morning, the instant I saw the moon, I was connected. I felt as though I was drawn to it, part of it. This feeling of being on the right path overwhelmed me. I felt as though I had passed one very important soul test. I was moving forward towards a new beginning, a new tomorrow with my eyes wide open and my heart ready for action.

We all are really. We have been working hard this year and this moon also symbolize the ending of what was and what no longer is.

I have spent a lot of time this past year working on my Heart Chakra, self acceptance, and understanding the patterns and choices in my life. Today I feel secure that this work has not been done in vain. It was needed for this next phase.

The emotions that keep floating to the service right now are ones of gratitude…deep fullfuling GRATITUDE.

Thank you Mr. Moon.

Namaste~ Clairvoyant Girl