How many of you feel that this word should be bolded and in all caps!? JUDGEMENT….
How do you define JUDGMENT Here is Merriam Websters attempt.
1) a : a formal utterance of an authoritative opinion
b : an opinion so pronounced
2) a : a formal decision given by a court
b (1) : an obligation (as a debt) created by the decree of a court
(2) : a certificate evidencing such a decree
3) a: capitalized : the final judging of humankind by God
b : a divine sentence or decision; specifically : a calamity held to be sent by God
4) a : the process of forming an opinion or evaluation by discerning and comparing
b : an opinion or estimate so formed
5) a : the capacity for judging : discernment
b : the exercise of this capacity
6) : a proposition stating something believed or asserted
- They are picking on someone who appears different to make themselves feel superior.
- They wish they had the strength to be their own person.
- Their personal anger towards themselves for not having the courage to stand out pushes them to act out, the scenario they fear they would encounter.
- They do not feel free to express themselves and be their true self (so why should someone else)
- pick on… so you’re not picked on.
I think you get my point in regards to outward judgement. It is usually an act of fear and jealousy (in an odd way).
Let’s turn the table around and look at judgement from the dreaded, ever imposing, internal perspective.
JUDGEMENT…The hardest thing we are on ourselves!! This is the word. the action. the thing that stops us the most besides fear (since they are so very related).
So many of us spend our lives judging ourselves. Attempting to live by standards that were most likely set into motion by someone other than ourselves. Ideals placed in our field by our parents and society. I mean it really is the job of our parents, caregivers to help mold us into the people we are today. We learn to live by the values of our loved ones. I am not saying any of that is wrong!!! Not at all! Especially since the alternative would be solitude growing up, where we would never be able to choose a side or know right from wrong.
What I am trying to do here is make you think about your values for a moment.
Are they truly yours? Do you believe them? Do they feel in alignment with your current path… How does it resonate within your current belief system?
These are some short sentences that hold some pretty big questions. I would suggest writing out your ideals, your values, basically the things that instantly come to your mind, that represent a good life, good person.
Now…put a check mark next to the ones you would expect your friends to live up to.
Next, put a check mark next to the ones that you expect yourself to live up to.
Now… look at this list. Does it seem complete… all the check marks where they need to be? You may be thinking… where are you going with this? Well, if you have two check marks next to each item on your list this is great. Possibly you are in alignment. Why do I say possibly??? Because we have a few of these lists… and the expectations with the items on the lists seem to change. But it is a great check point to become more aware of your ideals, your values.
The next thing to think about is what holds you back from doing something that does not affect your value system.
let me give you some examples….
I would like to quit my job. I don’t , because I am afraid that it would make me a quitter, a failure.
NOW , If my friend were to say to me. I really want to quit my job and do (blank). I would counsel her to do what makes her happy. That she would not be a quitter by moving in the direction her heart was pointing her. I would ask her why she would consider herself a failure? I would empower her to be who she was ment to be.
I have decided to hold myself to a standard that I do not hold my friends at…why? Why would we judge ourselves in a way we would never judge someone else?
Here is another example:
I do not like to cry. I hold my tears in. When I start to cry, I get angry at myself and feel like I am weak. I tell myself nothing good comes from crying. Weak…weak… overly emotional…woman. Float in head. LOL! Granted I know this is an issue and topic all on its own, but I digress… back to the example. NOW, the scenario changes and a good friend comes to me with an issue. They are crying…and they start to apologize for crying. I stop them and tell them not to apologize. They need to cry, release it. Feel it. Let it out. They say, I feel like such a baby though… I tell them that they are anything but. All the while in my heart I feel so much love and compassion for this person. I do not feel judgement… I do not look at them as weak…or overly emotional or as being “female”…NOT AT ALL. Why is it easier to be accepting of this behavior with someone else but not in myself/ourself?
Now these were just personal examples to try to make my point. Each of us have different situations that they can possibly relate to. Just as we each have different standards to which we attempt to live our lives. Are these standards on your list? Are these standards yours or expectations others placed upon you? In the two situations above I have personally asked myself… do you think you are better than them? My answer is always no…I dont. I just expect more from myself.
I think part of it is judgement…and part of it is really knowing what we are personally capable of… we forget to be forgiving to ourselves. We forget to hold our self in a compassionate stance.
I know this became a truly long blog post… I am sorry. I could go on…and on…and on, however… It all goes back to what I have been talking about in my last series of posts… We need to look within, learn who we are.
Remember when doing any self work… we need to hold our space with neutrality and amusement.
Release expectations and let things flow. The best advice I can give you is to give yourselves the advice, and understanding that we would give our dearest friend…our children.
Love and light~
I hear it…do you?
beating rhythm of a heart…my heart.
Edgar Allen Poe is running through my thoughts right now…
He was always a favorite poet and story-teller of mine, when I was younger. He seemed to be able to describe in such great detail the depth of pain a heart could cause or hold.
Think about it…an organ, a magnificent body organ that works in harmony with our brain to keep us alive.
That is all it is right…an organ.
But is it? I am afraid not. Even though it is an organ, this beautiful construction has the capacity to make us feel,and hold emotions. Some that are in the moment and many that no longer serve us.
Even a simple rhythm in a song can trigger and recreates an emotional reaction…
a longing in the heart. Just as the tempo shifts our thoughts and feelings begin to change as well. We react like the strings attached to a marionette.
Are you in control of your emotions…or are your emotions in control of you?
What emotion do you lead with? In your daily life…your exchanges, are you leading with your heart? What does this mean to you? Are you able to tell the difference between the two? Can you tell if you are leading or being lead? Do you see the potential difference?
I have fond myself at times in a an emotional circle… Where I have experienced something that left a very strong emotional reaction/impact on my heart… Instead of working through it and looking for the lesson…breaking down the experience, and removing judgment of self and others…I wallow.
Let me say for a minute here that there is a great difference between , feeling an emotion, letting it run its course and wallowing. It is really important to feel the emotion and move through it. Coming out on the other side is important. If you don’t process it…it can become you.
Leading with emotion is not always bad…as with pretty much anything I write about it is about balance. I find it hard to fixate on a black and white type of answer or society. everything happens for a reason and everything that needs to happen will. It is how we come at things… what emotion or stance we hold going into a situation can give it a completely different outcome. It all goes back to the fact that we have choices and lessons in this life time… how we get to our destination is determined by us. Some choices and lessons will take faster than others and some will move slower. How you get there is up to you. We need to learn to look within ourselves and see what our motivation or agenda is at any given time.
Some will say that they do not live from agenda and that they have reached the highest of vibrations… Great… I don’t necessarily believe that this happens very often. This physical life of ours is full of twists and turns. We live equally in ego and spirit… to do this we encounter the effects of both. All I want for all of us is to open our minds and our hearts to our intentions. Understand ourselves and why we chose left and not right. Learn from our choices and our reactions. Don’t just be a game piece in your life, live it, be an active participant of the internal life as well as your external.
It is possible to coast through and let ourselves be led through the experiences in our current life time…but why? Why wouldn’t we want to be an active participant in our choices? Relish in the beauty of it, the joy…sure there is pain as well…but through the pain we always have the potential for growth. Expansion…in awareness of who we are and who we were meant to be.
So as we embark on this confusing spring season (yes confusing) engage your heart and chose neutrality in most all your outward interactions. Why do I say confusing? I seem to be getting the message that each season this year holds a year of seasons within it. Each primary season magnified by its matching season within it, but also having traits and mirroring all the other seasons as well. 2013 is proving to be very unique, fast and exciting all at the same time. Again I compare it to a time warp… a worm hole in the universe, providing an express lane to the next lesson.
The biggest reminder is to live from your heart, that incrediable organ holds the key to your continued growth. This chakra has been preparing for a very long time to help take on the power needed to infuse the rest of your energy centers. All you need to do is open it up, air it out, let the blood pump through and trust that this is the new direction for all.
Hold on and enjoy the ride. Happy spring.
Just the thought of it is painful, uncomfortable and downright unpleasant. Yes…I know it’s a disgusting image. This imagery is in place to keep us away. We want to avoid and that avoidance lets the scab form. Contrary to what we have been told about picking scabs…in this instance picking at the scab will not leave a scare. Quite the opposite. Finding the cause will remove the cover up as well as the potential scare tissue and help us move forward.
I feel pretty confident that now is the time to move forward. Unearthing the issue we have avoided or let “scab” over will help us to see clearer the direction we are meant to go….the direction however that we go in will not be as easy as it could be when we carry our untreated wounds. Doing this will feel like you are going up hill instead of traveling forward on a level plain. Why is it important? Just think of all the energy we will or would have if we didn’t need to carry all the scars with us. We would be able to focus and manifest that much the clearer and faster.
In the spirit of the Pisces new moon, lets swim with the current not against it right now. If you feel like it is nothing but currents and you’re not getting where you are want to be…maybe you are dragging too much with you. Are you even aware of what you are holding on to? Are you holding on out of habit? Does it serve you or even matter anymore?
Much of the internal resistance we are feeling right now is in conjunction with mercury being in retrograde…it seems to be having more of an internal effect on us this time, instead as much externally. As we near the 17th of March, the fog will start to clear…things will begin to make more sense again. Now is the perfect time to just sit with your thoughts.
Take time in the next few days to show appreciation for your perseverance. Applaud yourself for what you have accomplished…how far you have come. This has been a new time…a fast time. Energetically things are shifting quicker than ever before. In all the haste of change we need to be reminded to stop and show ourselves appreciation (no matter how small) it is VERY important. I am reminded of a song from The Rocky Horror Picture Show…Time warp…the thing is…we are all doing the time warp right now. Everything is moving, quickly. The saying “Thoughts become things”…takes on a new importance…as it becomes a more urgent reminder to focus on the positive.
So how are we to pick off the scabs and remain positive you ask? Remain NEUTRAL, this is the key. Some of those old wounds have been festering for a very long time, so it’s not always easy to do this. The energetic charge we are all carrying right now tells me that we have the power, right now, to take this stand. It is what is necessary and all that’s standing in our way is the shadow of fear. Fear from our past attempts…and the events themselves. Just remember that spirit does not lead us to something that it thinks we are not equip to handle.
The time right now, is to center ourselves and run our energy…
Pull in a a beautiful light of spirit…a white iridescent glow that is rich in love, warmth, wisdom and strength.
Trust this light. Let it fill you.
Fill you with the strength and courage you need to rip the “bandage” off and air out what we have kept covered. Then Breathe deeply, and with each breath know that you are not alone, you are never alone and
Then fill in with all that you desire…no doubts how it will all be achieved… Just believe.
Trust that the picture is bigger than you could ever imagine.
Know that love is the ultimate goal.
Remove self judgement and allow things to unfold.
Step into your light body, and allow yourself to feel the warmth. Bask in it.
Breathe in the inspiration that surrounds you.
The task at hand is more about exposing the wound… Acknowledging it. Thanking it in a sense for the lessons you have learned from it, and then letting it know that it is no longer serving you. It’s original purpose is no longer needed…the protection or reminder has been replaced with a new understanding. An understanding of who you are and why. Love now fills the space where the scab once was. Love will replace the void, the regret, the pain. If this were a card game Love would ultimately heal and trump all. Play the love card on you self.
The beauty of love is that once you give it, you release it…you are automatically filled with more. The more you give the more you recieve…it is endless.
Remember Love =more love….
Have you ever stopped to wonder what you would have been like had you had the opportunity to meet yourself as a child?
I realize this is a really odd question. It is so interesting to peek into our childhood, years later. You see I happened upon some old journals of mine. I obviously fell in love with writing even as a young adolescent. I was eleven years old when my mother gave me my first journal, it was a Christmas gift. It was inscribed inside with the date December 1978. Little did I know then that I would develop such a personal relationship and passion with writing. One would think my grammar and spelling would be impeccable by now (unfortunately it is not). I obviously fell in love with the outlet not the specifics. I have always been passionate about the journey the experience and not necessarily the actual structure and schematics of writing, or anything else for that matter.
It is a funny thing, reading things your eleven old self felt was relevent enough to write about. I, it seemed worried a lot about boys! Ha! But seriously boys, family and love. I was always “in love” graved it you could say. Desired it. Needed it. Felt it so strongly. Knowing the person I am today, when I first read some this journal, I was taken a back a bit.
I have written about it before and spent a great deal of time working on it (my heart Chakra). I have sometimes wondered in the past, if I truly knew/know the feeling of love. Don’t get me wrong. I have a beautiful family that I love dearly. But when I have tried to really dissect this feeling called love I have always felt it eluded me. I always have felt that I have been guarded and not allowed myself to feel completely and when I have… whatch out, the emotion overwhelms me. I let very few people in to that sacred space called my heart, and when I do let you in, you are there forever. However… now that I have stepped back into time a bit I have a different perspective on my relationship with love.
After reading my journals from 6th grade to 9th (as far as I have gotten to date) I believe I was born with an overwhelming abundance of love in my heart. My heart Chakra must have been wide open. I loved everything and everyone. Saw the good in people even when they mistreated me and my feelings. I look at some of my words and realize how confused and tormented I was when their behavior did not match my expectations. This purity, this outlook, starts large in all of us. I believe the key is learning how to balance this chakra. I believe that if we continue to hold it wide open we potentially damage the innocence that we hold here causing a knee jerk reaction of closing this chakra completely off.
I think this is something that we see in society today. Many people out there that have closed themselves off due to experiences to the heart chakra which have damaged that part of them (at a young age) they so easily gave.
How or better yet, can we fix this? Is it too late?
By learning to run our energy and understand the effect it has on us as well as others. Yes, we can fix this.
I do not believe it is too late. It just takes the desire to do the work.
The very first step is understanding your energetic field and learning about your ability to hold boundaries. This is KEY. By the way….THIS is what we should be teaching our young! Everyone should be learning at a very young age the importance of personal boundaries . It should be taught in preschool, prior to entering the world unprotected and vulnerable. A bit dramatic??? Not really. I once read somewhere (when my children were very young) that you should not take a newborn out for at least 30 days. Because there aura’s was still developing and they were susceptible to negative energies. I am sure I got some of the specifics wrong, but I think I made the general point and I truly believe there is some truth to this!
This is now, my passion. My desire to share with everyone I can the importance of boundaries and introspection. Learning the power of self-reflection and introspection, knowing when what you are feeling is yours and what is someone elses. Not letting the cutting words or callousness of others force you to shut down your heart chakra.
How does this fit in with my last blog? What is your next step to practice? Hopefully you were able to come up with something that you believe makes you happy (give you joy). Don’t be discouraged if you were not able to figure something out yet… or if you were only able to come up with one or two things. This is a hard task! Over the course of the next few days I want you to practice running your energy. If you need a guid check out a previous blog of mine Steps to grounding
After you have ran your energy, think about what you would say…. to your eleven year old… self.
Would you give your self words of wisdom? A warning? Would you encourage yourself. what would you say? This task will take some time. Use the next few days to try to remember that part of you that time has separated us from. Add your message to the list of things that give you joy. Don’t limit yourself, if you have more than one message to your self write it down.
Step three will be towards the end of the week or the beginning of next week. I think we all need some time to process these. Eventually we will but these steps together for a final process.
I seem to be living ahead of myself lately. Which isn’t a bad thing. I just need to remember to not let myself lose touch with the here and now. Remembering to enjoy the present time is as important as planning for tomorrow.
Sometimes I stop and look around, only to find myself several steps ahead of my physical body. It isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but a different thing. My spirit is pulling my body along (like a kite). As long as I don’t break the string and I stay close enough to keep myself engaged, I will be fine.
I love that my body basically keeps me grounded! I am also very aware that if I don’t focus on grounding myself and being balanced within my multi-demensional self…I will become inefficient and float off course.
I have been reminded quite a bit lately, of the importance of grounding myself and being more aware of bringing in earth and spirit energy to fully move in the direction that I need to go.
You see, by grounding ourselves…we are able to run our energies and see how things feel (within) and look at where our energy feels stuck or blocked. It is also important to look at how we hold our space. What dimension do we lead with, how many dimensions are there, and what does that even mean? These are big questions… Big topics. But all in all the most important thing is just feeling our own energy and being able to look at it objectively. We have many energetic forms/dimensions that make up who we are today. Understanding some of them help us to understand more about ourselves. We all have a feminine and masculine form as well as a mental, emotional, spiritual and the one we are most in touch with the physical form. These are just a FEW…to give you an idea of what I mean when I say “multi-dimensional self”. The more we practice running our energy the more familiar we will become in where we are holding our space and where we have specific blocks.
By seeing or feeling our own energetic blocks we are able to understand our outward experiences so much clearer. It also gives us the extra insight to help us get back on track.
When we are able to look at what we are feeling internally and what we are resisting, only then are we able to make real outward change. We are then able to access the tools we need to figure out possible solutions to the road blocks that we were otherwise outwardly reacting to with frustration.
We are all energy, no exceptions! When we can begin to understand our own energetic self we will then be able to understand our effect on the others. Therein; collectively participating in universal change. Simply put when we can learn to look within to decode our own everyday issues, we will create a ripple effect. This ripple effect will help change the world.
Have a wonderful day!
a. 1. Rousing from sleep, in a natural or a figurative sense; rousing into activity; exciting; as, the awakening city; an awakening discourse; the awakening dawn.
n. 1. The act of awaking, or ceasing to sleep. Specifically: A revival of religion, or more general attention to religious matters than usual.
On this journey of mine, I hope to make as many stops along the way as possible. Stops that allow me to absorb knowledge, and understand different perspectives. To see things from another’s point of view. This journey is a beautiful one. I started out probably overly anxious to get to my destination (enlightenment). I believed that reaching my destination, becoming a better clairvoyant/medium was the actual intent and ultimately would be the success of my journey. What I have learned however; is the journey is the beautiful part. The journey, is the destination. This beautiful destination of enlightenment is so much more then a final destination. I have begun to see that learning, truly learning, is, what makes us and keeps us enlightened.
I have finally come to a point on my path where I can sit and for short periods of time, think of nothing. This is a great rest sop for me. While here I need to practice, feel what this space is like, when I am ready then I will move on. I am still learning, still observing, nothing mastered but a newfound trust in what I see, feel, or hear. I may not always be able to explain it, but I am becoming better at accepting that.
I have learned to stop and take notice and much more aware of the signs I am offered. I am awakening. The fog is starting to clear from my energy field. The pollution from years of programming and fear are starting to thin. The veil is beginning to lift, and the fear is subsiding. Somedays are still much easier to understand, but I have learned that those days that are harder to get through are the ones with the biggest messages for me. Understanding this is the first step.
This last year I have really begun to open myself up to the different modalities. I have been working on using my Reiki more for personal energy clearing and to help me hold my space. I started to branch out and listen more to others speak on their gifts, and talents. I have really enjoyed learning the Dynamind theory as well as reading more on EFT. All while on this amazing journey.
Then today, I had a beautiful (and highly effective) massage. This massage was incredibly grounding as well as spiritual the therapist was certified in many techniques such as Reiki, Healing Touch as well as a certified Oneness Coach to name a few. My massage included a Oneness blessing which left me with a feeling of love and comfort. At one point during my massage (a particular painful area) I was having a hard time breathing through it, when one of my guides showed up. My shaman guide. He was there at our rock, and kept me focused through my breath. It was a very beautiful experience. I am looking forward to reading more on this modality, and learning its origin as well as more of its intent.
Through our journeys our destinations may change, and new lessons may appear, the joy however is in knowing the opportunities we are presented with along the way are endless.
Stop where you are and look again at the journey you are on. Are you enjoying your journey, do you need to take a detour? Get off the beaten path? When your said destination arrives, will you truly be where you want to be?
October is a great month for reflection. I hope you are enjoying your journey.